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|Monday, June 16th, 2014|
|shit is about to get real.
Oh hi. It's been a while.
Finished my last day as a teacher after doing that for two years. Wednesday Morning I fly to Santa Cruz to ride my bike back to the coast of North Carolina over the course of four months or so. I'll be going kind of a wonky way back east, in that I'll be going to Portland, Missoula, and the Denver area before heading towards NC.
So, yeah, shit is about to get real.
How are you?
|Saturday, October 20th, 2012|
|on growing up.
I've been an inclusion special ed teacher since August. I'm still struggling a bit to get accustomed to the idea of having a grown-up job, and some days are better than others. Some days the teacher side of me gets really disappointed in the kids, but then the radical/social part of me recognizes that the kids (I teach at an inner-city-ish high school) have a lot of reasons to be fucking
angry. I'm still working to find the balance that works to where I won't be miserable and dread most of my days at work.
I'm also planning on using this job as a means to save a bunch of money so I can travel for several months next year. The first plan is to leave for a cross-country bike tour soon after school lets out (June 14- not that I'm counting the days or anything. Honest. Not this guy.) and fly to california (somewhere around santa cruz), and ride through some national parks and up the coast to portland. From there, we'll head to missoula, then through yellowstone and the rockies, then east from there. Once I get back to north carolina, I'd like to finally make that Iceland trip happen, with potential stops in Sweden, Norway, and Finland. If all goes well, the bike tour and euro trip will take around four or five months, so, needless to say, I don't plan on teaching Fall semester of next school year, and I'm ok with that
. There is still a whole lot of living I plan on doing, and having a grown up job is kind of getting in the way of that.
I am, once again, talking about taking a blood oath to swear off romance forever, I just haven't gone through with it. Yet. Yet. I'm just looking for the right ocean-side cliff to do it on, honest. I'll let you know when I find it.
So, yes, that's what's been going on with me (for any of you that I'm not friends with on the facebook).
How are you?
|Thursday, July 12th, 2012|
|it's been a while.
It's been a while since I've updated, but here are some things that have been going on the last little while:
Life ruled some. Life ruled a little less. Then life started ruling a lot. and I GOT A JOB AS A HIGH SCHOOL SPECIAL ED TEACHER AND IT'S WEIRD TO THINK THAT I'M GROWING UP.
I hope things are rad for you.
Let's write letters to each other.
|Tuesday, January 17th, 2012|
SO MANY GOOD THINGS RIGHT NOW.
|Saturday, December 24th, 2011|
Things are better. The key is to remembering that sometimes things down't work out and that certain people just aren't "meant" for each other. Letting go of the hurt/frustration/feelings of rejection will be an ongoing process, but it'll be necessary to grow as a person from this. I've been in a similar situation in the past, and after some reflection and PMA I was able to come away from it without any feelings of resentment.
So yes, things will be ok. The bad days are almost over.
|Wednesday, December 14th, 2011|
I've been super bummed about relationship stuff, which makes me not hungry and not want to ride my bike. it's pretty stupid.
that said, if we haven't talked in a while, I'd like that to change.
256.417.7901. hit me up.
|Thursday, February 3rd, 2011|
|This life is more than just a read-through
Spring/summer plans include the following: see more friends around the country and give them hugs and high fives, double century from Greensboro to the coast, going to Iceland (and maybe Sweden and/or Finland and/or Norway), jumping off cliffs into water, D2R2, and more laughing and more smiling and avocado mango milkshakes. Go!
and more snuggling/making out wouldn't be bad either...
|Wednesday, January 26th, 2011|
things have been a bit hard for me the last few days, but it also looks like they're getting better.
i tend to overthink things and become neurotic, especially when amorous emotions get mixed in.
i may very well be moving back to greensboro in march.
part of me was left in the southwest.
i am very fortunate to have some of the people in my life that i do. there are, however, some i wish i didn't.
we're supposed to get snow again in huntsville. this will be the third time since xmas that we've had accumulation, and the last time we had snow it was 5-8 inches. truthfully, i'm a bit over it. snow was more fun when i was a kid and before i rode bikes.
enough complaining. i'm trying to make my heart better.
i hope you are well.
|Sunday, November 21st, 2010|
hi! how are you? what's new with you?
|Sunday, August 15th, 2010|
1. i'm alive! i did spend 2 1/2 days in a hospital because i got bit by a dog and my arm got infected, so i was hooked up to an IV and got antibiotics. it wasn't as bad as it sounds, but being there was super boring.
2. i've decided to stay in huntsville and take on a managerial role at the bike shop, as opposed to pursuing teaching somewhere. i (finally) came to the realization that i love and understand bikes more than i do teaching stuff. i don't dread goin g to work, but even when i was doing my student teaching, i had a bit of an unhappy feeling every morning knowing i had to go in to the school. i think what it was is that i originally told myself that long-term employment within the bike industry wasn't necessarily a valid pursuit, and of the options i presented myself, teaching was the most liveable.
that's not to say that i couldn't be a good teacher if i wanted to or that it's not something i'll pursue at some point in the future, but for the time being my heart lies completely with the bike industry, and not with the education industry.
so, if all goes even semi-according to plan, i'll start managing the shop soon, and possibly in a few years (if i've stuck around that long) possibly buy it. we'll see, i suppose.
3. it's almost cyclocross season!
4. you'll have to forgive me for the lack of updates here. i suppose i'm just not motivated to "blog" very often.
5. what's new with you?
|Monday, May 3rd, 2010|
|brief road trip next week!
starting saturday, i'm going on a very brief (i'd say too brief, but because of work-related things, it has to be as such) east coast road trip to hang out with people and do some other things.
saturday through tuesday i'll be in DC hanging out with friends from alabama and DC. then, tuesday morning, i'm heading up to providence to get fitted and put a deposit down on a custom frame from Circle A Cycles
. That night it looks like i'm heading to boston to stay with my friend david wilcox. from there, i'm headed to portland, me on wednesday to hang out with my friend nicole. thursday i'm headed to poughkeepsie to hang out and ride with my friend jason. friday gaylordsville, ct will be on the agenda to see my friend dan. saturday i may go to huntingdon, pa to see family, and then i'll be back in greensboro on sunday to pack up my car to go to alabama for the better part of the summer.
like i said- brief.
if you're in any of these town and have time for a brief hangout, let me know. i'd love to see you.
i hope you are well.
|Tuesday, April 27th, 2010|
|traveling in july.
so it looks like my plans to go to iceland will have to be postponed. as a result, i'm leaning toward taking a road trip through the midwest and possibly out to the west coast. like last summer, it'll hopefully be three to four weeks, so let me know if you want to hang out and you live that direction.
i'll also be going back to alabama to work at the bike shop from mid-may to mid/late june, so if you live near north alabama, we should also hang out.
one of my plans for this summer is to talk to the owner of the bike shop about the possibility of buying it. while i think it's not unlikely he'd be willing to sell, i think the potential to get a business loan large enough to buy the shop is not very high for me. given the state of the economy, i could be wrong. or right. hell if i know.
these are things i know:
1. so far greensboro has failed me in much the same way everywhere else i have (and will likely ever) lived has.
2. all i ever think about are riding bikes, traveling, and sometimes snuggling. at least two of the three should be happening soon.
3. i'm falling in love with the idea of riding in montana.
4. i'm going to get the japanese lettering on my leg covered up.
5. despite being frustrated about some things, i'm still very much in love with life.
most of you that still read this are friends with me on facebook, so you likely know all of this already, but i figured i'd make an attempt at bring this journal back to life.
i hope you are well.
|Tuesday, April 20th, 2010|
blood oath to swear off romance forever.
|Sunday, January 31st, 2010|
so, yeah, it's been a while (although most of you that read this may see what i'm up to via facebook) since i wrote in here.
this is a brief synopsis of the last five weeks:
went to alabama. got bummed on alabama. came back to greensboro. got bummed on greensboro. things with the crush didn't go anywhere. ended up getting a new crush (this time it was sorta reciprocated), but because i tend to be overly-emotionally giving, that's hasn't gone anywhere yet because she just she just isn't sure what she wants to happen between us. honestly, i would like for things to go somewhere, but i'm not exactly sure where. mostly i'd like to make out/snuggle, without it going past that just yet. we've talked about it, and because of my inability to separate the emotional from the physical, things are a bit up in the air right now. truthfully, that's ok. we'll see what happens.
this past month i rode my bike 1000 miles (1600 kms). it's been the best january i've ever had mileage-wise, and i haven't done a 1000 mile month since sometime in 2005. i've also been feeling really strong on the bike, so that's been a plus.
we got about six inches of snow here, and it's beautiful. unfortunately, it's going to put my riding plans on hold for a bit. there is, however, the full-time possibility of snowball fights.
work-wise, nothing has really happened yet. it's looking like i'll be getting a math and science tutoring job at a local middle school. it'll be 17 hours per week at $20/hr, so i'll be able to pay all my bills and have money left over. if i sub in addition to that, the iceland trip will almost certainly happen.
i've also been thinking about relocating to the desert southwest somewhere. truthfully, greensboro hasn't worked out as well as i'd hoped, and a lot of the people who i thought i would hang out with all the time have easily forgotten about me. not super stoked about that, but i suppose it happens.
so yeah, that's life in a nutshell the last five weeks.
1. how have you been?
2. what's been the best thing to happen to you lately?
3. what's the best thing you've done lately?
4. what made you smile yesterday?
5. fall (the season) or crushes?
|Saturday, December 26th, 2009|
|i'll fly away.
so the woman i was crushing on is moving to florida sometime next month. so that's done. well, that, and the fact that she's not into me. i suppose that makes it a bit more difficult.
i'm in tuscaloosa and hanging out alone. kinda like old times, except at a different place. i don't miss this town at all.
i ate far too much food today. i know it's the holidays and all, but i feel unwell about it.
more coffee. more riding. more cuddling/snuggling/making out (as opposed to zero, that is).
how are you?
|Friday, December 18th, 2009|
I HAVE A HUGE CRUSH ON SOMEONE WHO IS 10 YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME AND THIS WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME SO THAT SAID THANK YOU AND I HOPE YOU ARE WELL AND IT WAS NICE KNOWING YOU PLEASE TELL YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS THAT YOU LOVE THEM AND RIDE BIKES MORE AND TRY TO REMEMBER ME BEFORE I DIED OF A BROKEN HEART THANK YOU AMEN GOODNIGHT.
|Sunday, December 6th, 2009|
|all i want to do is listen to anti-civilization metal.
things here in greensboro are still kind of fucked and i think it's all beginning to wear on me more than i'd hoped it would, to the point where i'm semi considering new places to live next september. if things don't improve work-wise, "friend"-wise, and several other things-wise, i may be looking for a new geographic locale to base my life out of. admittedly, i haven't been looking for work as hard as i could be, but i'm still getting to be over a number of things here. i also admit that i've completely romanticized a lot of portions of new england, but i find that i think about it a lot with a fair deal of longing.
i'm also at the point where i think it would be nice to snuggle with someone other than gota, the house cat. i mean, i love gota (more than i love a lot of people, to be honest), but it's still not the same.
and my car is still broken down.
regardless, these are some things that i like right now:
bands like heaven shall burn.
riding a bike.
hanging out with awesome toddlers.
making plans to go to iceland.
how are you?
|Thursday, November 19th, 2009|
|postcard from greensboro.
hi. things are going reasonably well here, other than the bad leg from crashing, financial straits, and a broken down car. the thing keeping me from being super stressed is the fact that this whole situation is just so comical and ridiculous.
other than those things, it's going really well. i've met a ton of amazing, inspiring people, i can finally start riding again, though my cross season is pretty much shot, and i've been eating well and hanging out with a ton of friends.
how are you?
i hope i'll get to see you sometimes soon.
wish you were here!
|Monday, October 5th, 2009|
1. i am moving to greensboro, nc on october 16th. it's official.
2. i am planning a trip to iceland next summer. in all seriousness- let me know if you'd like to go.
3. despite a lot of amazing things going on right now, i can't help but feel a touch of the sad coming on.
|Tuesday, September 22nd, 2009|
|listen to Heaven Shall Burn.
1. i promise i'll do a more detailed post sometime soon, but not tonight.
2. who still reads this? and are there any people without journals who do? let me know y'all.
3. i'm moving to greensboro, nc around the middle of next month, barring disaster.
4. cyclocross season starts on october 11th and i'm not nearly in the shape i should be. this could be interesting/fun/demoralizing.
5. i am more in love with life now than ever. thank you for being one of the reasons for that.
6. how are you? what has frustrated you lately? what has made you smile?